Un-Adoptically Me — My story. My truth. My voice. | The Journey Continues to Eljoshijka The eighty-eight snapshots are complete. Now, a word from the Cave Studio — and an invitation into the next turn of the spiral. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me — My story. My truth. My voice. | Closing Credits At the end of the final snapshot, a word from the studio: this memoir was written by the woman who lived it, and narrated by the same woman who survived it. The story started and ended here. Thank you...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 88: She's That Ready I stand as a lioness shedding skins in the moonlight, finally realizing that my hero's journey was merely a sacred odyssey of coming home to the eternal self I never truly left. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 87: Stardust and Destiny Deciphering the seals of a cosmic Rosetta Stone, I discovered that the threads of my life were woven into a celestial loom that even used a chilling star of violence to reaffirm the miracle of every moment. 🎧...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 86: A Gift of Thorns I emerged from the light of liberation to find that adoption is often a gift wrapped in thorns, accompanied by a card penned in blood that commands the adoptee to be grateful it's not worse. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 85: The Tale of Eluna In a garden filled with sun-kissed roses, a lone moonbloom discovered that her petals were not a mistake, but a beacon designed to illuminate a hidden path for the night-dwellers. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 84: The Primal Trauma Sheltered by a mythical sanctuary on a supermoon night, I relived the five eternal days where I was a soul without a name, finally reconciling three identities into the awe-inspiring fragrance of a singular presence....

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 83: Forever Georick Amidst the sharp fragments of a shattered mirror, a voice from the other side whispered a message of short-sightedness and sorrow, finally birthing a radiant newborn star within my soul. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 82: The Tree I looked at the sentinel of his sanctuary and realized that in the ultimate threshold between life and death, the tree had become the golden bridge for his passage into forever. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 81: Remnants Walking through a somber waltz of half-empty wine glasses and artistic wreckage, I stood before a morgue identifying a peaceful face that had finally slaughtered my entire dictionary of words. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 80: Hourglass Shattered A dark and depraved force ripped the heart from my chest in a single sweep, leaving my spirit to seep into the sands of an utter annihilation I could only describe as a savage animal's bellow. 🎧 Stream the full...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 79: Soul Sisters As we marked a sisterhood anniversary by setting my mother's spirit free into the waves of Muizenberg, a phone call at sunset unleashed a stellar tempest that consumed the phoenix in fiery despair. 🎧 Stream the full...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 78: Footloose and Feathered We hit the open road to find a wild heart in Africa, embarking on a quest for a daily feather that would eventually lead me back to a rock where my father's spirit still soars with the fish eagles. 🎧 Stream the...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 77: A Sacred Journey Within the secretive hours of a hidden moon, I found myself at the threshold of a great remembering, where an oracle card's face stirred a depth of anguish that transcended my own physical vessel. 🎧 Stream the full...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 76: Wounded Roots Faced with an ultimatum that threatened to pulverize my integrity, I chose to stand in the fire of my own truth, even as it severed the fragile bond of a relationship I had spent a lifetime trying to save. 🎧 Stream the...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 75: The Miracle Move Standing at a gas station with my heart in my throat and my world in the lurch, I watched an empty truck pull in like a divine U-turn sent to prove that the impossible is merely a test of energy. 🎧 Stream the full...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 74: Of Sevens and Cycles While a sacred messenger appeared seven times on the road to reinforce my faith, a phone call from a daughter in tears finally slammed the door shut on a twenty-three-year chapter of trauma. 🎧 Stream the full...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 73: Tracking Rainbows, Finding Treasure I prayed for a concrete sign that would shout our new names, and a celestial arc appeared to bathe a thatched-roof house in a luminous halo at the exact moment we arrived. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 72: What If? A gentle breeze scraped the thorns of an acacia tree and whispered a question that challenged the very pinnacle of the life I thought was my final destination. 🎧 Stream the full series: https://foreverfree.co.za/listen88 📖...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 71: The Courage to be Vulnerable Returning from a European dream to find an unbridgeable chasm, I realized that a sinister force was lurking in the shadows, sabotaging the very bonds I held most dear. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 70: Bling and Barefoot on the Beach What I thought was a simple seafood dinner in a coastal village turned into a secret sixty-minute countdown to a barefoot wedding just meters from where we first met. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 69: Divine Portals and Deluges After a decade of dust, a numeric trinity beckoned a deluge that shook our sandstone walls and transformed a barren basin into an overflowing oasis in a single, electric night. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 68: The Unwelcome Visitor A dust cloud on a peaceful horizon transformed into a ravenous beast when a sheriff handed me a sheaf of papers that smelled of malevolence and a predator's refusal to let go. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 67: Desert Dreams and Daughters Surrounded by the vibrant dune bashing and luxury of Dubai, I finally tasted the reciprocity of a child's kindness, unaware that a ravenous beast was already building a case to hunt me down. 🎧 Stream the...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 66: Rising from the Ruins I saluted my own consecrated ruins and watched as a phoenix frequency transformed target practice and quad-bike adventures into a celestial canvas of radiant renewal. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 65: The Space Between Us In an elegant room where sunlight bathed my vulnerability, I watched a veil lift to reveal that my daughter was no longer a princess lost, but a woman standing with her own wings unfurled. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 64: Every Mother's Dream Standing at the gates of a prestigious wine estate, I had to decide if I would cling to the shattered mirror of our past or finally set us both free by whispering a single, necessary apology. 🎧 Stream the full...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 63: Crossroads of Choice I reached out to bridge a chasm, only to hear a son's devastating verdict that reminded me my radiance must remain unshakeable even when my children choose to stay in the shadows. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 62: Beyond the Line While zebras grazed on the slopes above our sanctuary, I had to draw a stick through the sand to decide if I would continue to bankroll a predator who viewed my survival as his own entitlement. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 61: And Then Came Tomorrow Just as I began to saunter hand-in-hand in the light of freedom, a box of returned childhood memories arrived like a punch to the gut, reopening the primal wound of my first abandonment. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 60: Free at Last Standing on a farm that had been waiting for its own christening, I realized that my liberation was being orchestrated by a grand symphony that had already written its name in my journals years ago. 🎧 Stream the full...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 59: Friday's Reckoning I pierced the solar system and returned breathless to find that a single sentence in a judge's chamber had finally shattered the axis of a twenty-three-year lie. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 58: Moondust and Miracles In a world of secret charades and emotional war zones, I discovered a cosmic symmetry in our birth years that mirrored a list of non-negotiables I hadn't even dared to fully dream. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 57: Soulbound under the Supermoon Beneath the deep reddish hue of a blood moon, two souls converged in a slow, sensual glide toward a contract that had been whispered by the stars long before we met. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 56: Oudtshoorn Says She Misses You Amidst a weekday wilderness of legal summons and anxiety, a single photo of ostrich feathers became a masterclass in seduction by screenshot. 🎧 Stream the full series: https://foreverfree.co.za/listen88 📖...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 55: Sanctuary She never knew her dwelling places were castles until a bolt from the blue lifted her drawbridges and delicately laid her haunted echoes to rest. 🎧 Stream the full series: https://foreverfree.co.za/listen88 📖 Read along...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 54: The Promise of Strand Beach Walking along a shore of endless possibility, I made a vow to never again surrender my autonomy to anyone who didn't mirror back my own inherent beauty and truth. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 53: From Judgment to Grace As I sat in the quiet of a new life, a message from my son eviscerated my heart, proving that pieces of my soul had to be pulverized to powder before I could move into a realm of pure grace. 🎧 Stream the full...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 52: When Love Means Letting Go In the silence of an empty house, I had to make the ultimate sacrifice of love, realizing that protecting my companions from a future of suffering meant letting them go before I left. 🎧 Stream the full...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 51: Welcome Home Standing on a cosmic platform between two towns, I received a message of arrival that synchronized perfectly with a prophetic video I had recorded when I had no buyers and no hope. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 50: Yours Quotefully Forged in the depths of my being, these pearls of wisdom became a chronicle of a soul that refused to be emptied with a teaspoon. 🎧 Stream the full series: https://foreverfree.co.za/listen88 📖 Read along (exclusive...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 49: Unshackling My Soul While my husband sat barricaded behind a wall of his own making, I executed a clandestine mission to reclaim the only thing he could never touch — my own spirit. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 48: Of Butterflies and Battlefields I learned that butterflies are often winged on the battlefields of the mind, and that the poison my abusers intended for me was destined to be their own final cup. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 47: The Art of Surrender While my outer world sat in consecrated ruins, I found myself in a state of liquid moonlight, birthing a butterfly from a chrysalis that had been cracked wide open by chaos. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 46: Becoming Alice I woke to an unfamiliar euphoria, realizing that the vibrant little girl I had suppressed for decades was finally ready to dance in the flames of her own unbridled joy. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 45: A Hero on Horseback Just as I had sworn off men forever, a celestial message flashed in red letters, warning me that a speckled horse was carrying a man who would finally teach me the meaning of unconditional love. 🎧 Stream the full...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 44: Beyond the Veil Guided by the breath of a leaf on the breeze, I walked among fifty-two wolves to find a compass materializing within my chest, beckoning me toward a truest self I had never dared to name. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 43: The Domino Effect As the first legal domino fell, I found myself going through the eye of a needle, stripped bare of everything and everyone I thought defined my world. 🎧 Stream the full series: https://foreverfree.co.za/listen88 📖...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 42: A Woman Scorned, A Warrior Born Compiling three files of a twenty-year history, I realized I didn't want a worrier; I wanted a warrior who could see through the cunning tactics of a ruthless opponent. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 41: The Whisper of Freedom The decision didn't come with fanfare, but in a small whisper at a roadside village that asked if I still wanted to be married to a man who treated my soul like dead weight. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 40: Unleashing the Dragon Recording a conversation that dropped like a bombshell, I watched as the mask finally fell, revealing a web of deceit that had kept me captive for twenty-three years. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 39: A Cry for Grace I asked for a simple act of grace to save a marriage, only to be met with a stunning cruelty that finally gave me the courage to draw a sacred line in the sand. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 38: A Week of Mirrors From the way we parked our cars to the embarrassing secret of our skin, a week of shared mirrors revealed that nature had kept its appointment with us despite fifty years of absence. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 37: The Story I Never Knew I sat in the shadow of a story I never knew, learning that my arrival in the world was marked by a separation that would forever shape the landscape of my mother's silent prayers. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 36: A Life in Pictures, A Heart in Pieces In a quiet lounge, I watched as the woman who gave me life traced the faces of the people who raised me, whispering a mother's gratitude for a journey she was never permitted to witness. 🎧 Stream...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 35: Tea and Wonder Before we ever shared a cup of tea, a whimsical gesture from a sister's fingers pierced my heart, proving that even in our separation, we had always spoken the same secret language of humor. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 34: Baby, Come Home As our eyes met in the airport's din, the world around us levitated, leaving only the primary reflection of a soul that finally, after half a century, heard the words 'I see you.' 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 33: Thoughts Unraveling Through the crackle of a phone line, I discovered that the woman who gave me away was herself a foster child who had been forced to swear on a Bible that she would never come looking for me. 🎧 Stream the full...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 32: From Stranger to Sister Looking at a photo of the woman who gave me life, I searched her face for the reflection I had spent decades performing, only to find it in the smile of a sister I was about to call. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 31: Falling into Wonderland A tiny seed of an email cracked my earth in two, revealing that my search was being mirrored by a sister I had spent a lifetime imagining on the side of a dusty road. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 30: Beyond the Birth Certificate While a bureaucratic request led to a deafening silence, my body began its own seismic shifting, trembling with the neurogenic release of stories it could no longer hold. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 29: A Daughter's Letter As the sun dipped below the Karoo hills, I sat in my car to write a letter to a woman I had spent fifty-one years rising to the surface to breathe without. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 28: Angels of Reunion In a room vibrating with the unseen presence of angels, I was swept into a sixty-minute embrace that snapped the shackles of a lifetime's doubt. 🎧 Stream the full series: https://foreverfree.co.za/listen88 📖 Read...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 27: A Life in Crisis Alone in a remote forest cabin under a full moon, I faced the agonizing silence of a life that was draining away faster than I could find the courage to replenish it. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 26: The Grandparent Paradox I stood before the ghosts of my grandparents and felt a love so profound it shattered my mind's belief that abandonment was the only truth I would ever inherit. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 25: A House Divided Moving my life into a guest room on the eve of a new year, I realized that the chaos erupting in my home was the sound of stagnant energies finally being torn loose. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 24: In the Knowing Field Sitting in a circle of twelve strangers, I heard three simple words that triggered an earthquake in my soul, finally making my adoption real, palpable, and heart-wrenching. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 23: Karmic Release I woke to a voice that declared my ancient debts settled, inviting me to step out of a duel of self-hate and into a DNA-shifting frequency I didn't yet know how to carry. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 22: From Ashes to Awakening As the flames curled the edges of my prenuptial contract in the backyard, I felt the shackles of a twenty-year vow dissolve into the night air, leaving me reborn and nameless. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 21: Touchdown in Turmoil Gazing at the empty space where my wedding ring's stone used to be, I realized that the heavy weight of my swollen feet was simply the body's way of carrying a life I was no longer meant to lead. 🎧 Stream the full...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 20: A Short Tail of Love In the small, feisty frame of a dog named Shortsy, I found a guardian who mirrored my own food-intolerant soul and taught me that some goodbyes are simply the beginning of a deeper presence. 🎧 Stream the full...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 19: Trapped in a Nightmare Watching a princess being decimated by a monster's manipulation, I found myself drowning in a twisted gratitude that it wasn't worse, while my soul screamed for an exit I couldn't yet see. 🎧 Stream the full...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 18: My Gentle Giant Surrounded by the vibrant charm of Franschhoek, I watched my son reinvent himself, unaware that the road home would soon become a river of my own uncontainable sorrow. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 17: The Hell to Come As I howled like a prairie wolf into the rugged landscape of 'The Hell,' my heart knew what my mind refused to admit — that the coming year would burn everything I knew to the ground. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 16: Beyond the Forgotten Pages Retrieving seven buried journals from the dust of my past, I discovered that the words I once thought were a lie were actually a prophetic map back to my own soul. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 15: From Victim to Victor Amidst the comedy of a breaking-down van and a crumbling life, a single moment on a stage rewrote my destiny from a story of what happened to me to what I would do with it. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 14: Beyond the Chaos For years, I walked on eggshells in a house where silence was a weapon and survival was a performance I perfected until I forgot how to breathe. 🎧 Stream the full series: https://foreverfree.co.za/listen88 📖 Read along...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 13: The Aftermath of Betrayal Beneath the weight of a monstrous betrayal, I found myself face-to-face with Divinity on a garden bench, screaming at a sky that had remained painfully silent while my child suffered. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 12: The Shadows We Keep Standing in the wreckage of a son's stolen childhood, I had to find the words to apologize for a silence I didn't even know I was keeping. 🎧 Stream the full series: https://foreverfree.co.za/listen88 📖 Read along...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 11: From Hartenbos to Forever The greatest gift I ever received was a man's hesitant 'no,' a three-month delay that eventually paved the way for the only home I would ever truly know. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 10: How Could You?! A soul shredded by secrets, I watched from above as my son's fragmenting world incinerated the very fabric of the roof I thought was a sanctuary. 🎧 Stream the full series: https://foreverfree.co.za/listen88 📖 Read along...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 9: Ink of the Soul Standing in the Oudtshoorn veld, I watched as a name I had never heard — Eljoshijka — spilled from my pen to reconcile the simultaneous death and birth of my existence. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 8: Born to Search In a room filled with rivers of tears, the walls of my adult defenses dissolved into a hypnotherapeutic vision of a womb that felt more like a prison. 🎧 Stream the full series: https://foreverfree.co.za/listen88 📖 Read...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 7: Fuck You, Too! Nine sentences of cold, bureaucratic ink arrived to slice through fifty years of sacred fantasy, reducing the woman who gave me life to a biological entity with a 'Standard 8' education. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 6: Motherhood Unscripted While the world mourned a fallen princess, I cradled my own, unaware that the umbilical cord twice-wrapped around her neck was the precursor to a life of needles and pain. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 5: The Unasked Question Beneath the adoration of a whirlwind romance, a celestial banner unfurled in my soul with a single, devastating query: why did you detest my every movement inside of you? 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 4: A Life Reborn Returning to the same maternal ward where my own displacement began, I felt the peculiar convergence of destiny as a tiny miracle latched onto my breast to claim a lineage I had been afraid to seek. 🎧 Stream the full...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 3: My Unseen Self A suitcase retrieved from a cupboard and placed on a childhood bed became the silent anchor for a lifelong vow: it is safer to perform than to be real. 🎧 Stream the full series: https://foreverfree.co.za/listen88 📖 Read...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 2: Little Lamb I was taught to radiate a borrowed joy, mirroring a family narrative that told me I was chosen only because I was the prettiest baby in the room. 🎧 Stream the full series: https://foreverfree.co.za/listen88 📖 Read along...

Un-Adoptically Me | Snapshot 1: Beyond the Umbilical As the golden cord of love finally severed in that hospital room, I found myself standing in a hollow space where the only remaining presence was the unwelcome friend of numbness. 🎧 Stream the full series:...

Un-Adoptically Me — My story. My truth. My voice. | Introduction Before the first snapshot begins, a word from the Cave Studio — and from the woman who lived every chapter of this story. 🎧 Stream the full series: https://foreverfree.co.za/listen88 📖 Read along...

Un-Adoptically Me — My story. My truth. My voice. | Dedication & Foreword Reconnecting after fifty-one years, I realized that our shared silence was merely the rhythmic prelude to an odyssey of magic that neither of us was prepared to name. (Sonnette Lombaard) 🎧...

Un-Adoptically Me — My story. My truth. My voice. | Opening Credits Before the first snapshot begins, a word from the studio: this memoir was written by the woman who lived it, and narrated by the same woman who survived it. Welcome to Cave Studio, Tulbagh. The story...